Agree Not to See



Music wafting through the air
or is that birds
or Tinkerbell?
I got some dust inside my eyes
so it must be the fairy
swooshing by.

Marching bands
with brass and bass
kings and princesses
take their place
to tell the story—
the same one again:
a far away land
a witch and a hand
given in fanfare
to a sashed, bare-faced man.

There are rides to be
taken
heroes who capture
and race
down adrenaline-filled paths
that feel like lov—
no, rapture.

Slow and then fast
through dazzling light
enough to fly past the
machine in the back
and the character
smoking with his head
hung on a rack—

We agree not to see.

Lights flicker
gold and then blue
wait—did he just look
or did he look through?
A pause in the motion
something like timing
I take as a cue.

Confetti drifts
ash, or snow
touches my sleeve
then lets me go
I leave it there—
a moment too long
part of the set
and now so am I

—and who am I?

I forget.

Voices echo
layered thin—
his or theirs
or somewhere between
I turn to see
then let it be what it was
I could have sworn
the words
pointed to you.

The track tilts—
just slightly off
enough to blame
on atmosphere or thought
I steady once
then sit up again
and see the path
has gently bent

not back
not through—

just near

A mirror placed
at child-height glass
returns a face
I almost pass
until it lingers
half a beat—

more sure of you
than it is of me

A worker sweeps
the same small spot
back and forth
as if it’s not
already clean
already done—

I watch too long
then call it one
of those things
that people repeat
to keep the edges
soft and the picture neat.

A door marked STAFF
stands open wide
no one there
but light inside.
I look—

then don’t—

then walk beyond

back into sound
and colored air
where something waits
that isn’t there
or isn’t mine—
but knows my name
well enough
to feel the same

The music swells—
or something like it
close enough
that I don’t fight it
I take my place
without a claim

and watch it start
the same again.

—Iris Lennox, 2026